The Chair

We have a chair in our home that contains many memories. My first memory of this chair is not pleasant. I remember after my Grandma Omer passed away the family moved her to this chair. I arrived just after her death and mourned her passing by the side of this chair. After my Grandpa passed away, I some how inherited this chair. For several Months Every time I would walk down stairs, I hated the chair. My memory of A lifeless loved one was so strongly connected with the thing, I didn't even want to sit in it. Obviously over time, as my pain eased, so did my dislike for the rocking chair. I have had two children since then, both have spent countless hours being rocked in this chair.
The other night after Jackson's Birthday party I rocked my sweet Joey to sleep. I could smell his sweet smell, hear his loud breathing, and felt the warmth of his tiny body. His is ever calm sweet spirit brought peace to my soul. After I laid him down, my oldest Angel came with a blanket and sat in my lap. We talked, and rocked in the chair. I ran my fingers through her thick hair and stroked her soft cheeks like I did when she was a baby. I felt my deep bond with her and couldn't help but reflect on the amazing five years she has been in my life. She also fell asleep in my arms. After I carried her back to her bed. I felt overwhelmed with gratitude for my children, but my night was not over. I went back and sat in the chair and called my little Jack over. He came with magic string blanket in tow. We talked about his birthday and all the fun he had. We rocked and cuddled because he is, and will always be my original cuddle bug. His energy and zest for life were not quieted until he feel asleep with his head rested on my chest, tucked under my chin. I could not help smiling as I watched him sleep, Little jack with the joy he finds in every thing we do, he is my child with endless hours of stories and an imagination the has no boundaries.
I realized I had been given a rare opportunity that night. I was able to love and enjoy each of my children in a way that is sometimes hard to do in this crazy life we live. its funny how in just one night I have new feelings for the chair. Now, instead of remembering the image of my Grandma whom I miss so often, I see the three angelic faces of my children. With out them I would not be even close to the person I am, they make my better, stronger and braver then I ever could be one my own. I am grateful for Friday night. I am very grateful for the chair, the chair that gave me the opportunity to rock three of the most amazing people on earth to sleep.

Why no blogging?

Well for those of you who read this blog, you may have noticed it hasn't had much action this week. It will again but between now and wednesday I have afew big things gong on:

Today- Indiana Jacksons Birthday, we have games, a huge cake and we think between 12-25 kids coming.
Tomorrow- I am teaching a class with Tressie for a young Womens thing from 10-12, coming home to see my kids a little bit, then going out on the town with some good friends and my honey.
Next tuesday is St. Patricks and since I am the holiday home room mom, that means I have a lot of calls to make and figure out how I need to help.
Wednesday- Is my first, and our biggest of the year, enrichment. So I have invites to make before sunday, people to call, and things to make and set up.

So in the next five days I have about four MAJOR things to be getting ready for and doing. Right now I am going to go get my scrub on and clean, because if I have 25 kids here and their parents, we are going to be cramming a lot of people in one house! Which also means no corner will be unused. wish me luck! I will try to post some pictures of Jacks Birthday tommorow or sunday.

As a thief in the night...

Last night my husband and I were discussing all the things happening around us. we both agreed that as young energetic teens we never thought the lessons in seminary about the second coming would come true so soon in our lives. it was interesting because we were going over just a small list of "signs" of the second coming, just things we could remember off the top of our head. Changing of the season-check- wars and rumors of wars-check- families turning against each other- check-Have you ever heard of some many terrible things happening in peoples lives as right now? the news can't even begin to cover it all.. I got on-line to check the news as I do many times a day and the headlines were:

• U.S. to Push Global Stimulus

  Washington to urge world leaders to boost emergency spending to lift economy, risking a rift with Europeans
  • Japan's Nikkei Index Closes at 26-Year Low
  • World Bank: Global Economy to Shrink in 2009
  • Obama Backers Ask for Patience on Recovery Efforts
  • Analysts: Stimulus a 'Step Behind' | FIRST 100 DAYS

• Israel: Iran Crossed 'Nuclear Threshold'

  Top military intelligence chief says Iran has the expertise and materials needed to make atomic weapons
  • Iran Test-Fires Missile That Puts Israel in Range

• Americans Are Losing Their Religion

  Study finds percentage of Christians in U.S. declining — and more people say they now have no religion at all

AFP/Reuters

North Korea puts armed forces on standby for war and threatens to 'launch without hesitation a just retaliatory strike' against anyone seeking to stop its 'satellite' launch.
• N. Korean Leader Kim Re-Elected to Parliament

It made me pause, especially the article about Americans turning from God their very creator.

We have always been taught that the second coming would come as a thief in the night, except for those who were waiting and watching. Are we watching? I have to say I think most are not, but maybe, just maybe its time we start.

TOP SECRET!

Next week is Jack b-day, yes, all family is invited; if you want to come give me a call! But when I asked him what kind of Birthday party he wanted, he told me an Indiana Jones Party. Last night we made the invites. On the back side of the map are the date and times for "Indiana Jacksons" party. Its going to be lots of fun I think!

oh no they didn't!

So last night on American Idol was....I don't know. so far, for me, this season has been the worst yet and there have been MANY discussions in this house hold of if this is even worth our time. If we didn't have DVR we would have stopped watching weeks ago! But last night those judges made me not happy..I mean NOT happy. Because tonight I have to in endure watching Tatiana preform and act who knows how AGAIN! the day she left I was singing praises all night. Now she is back- even if only for a night. I mean it bugs me SO bad I felt the need to blog about it. which tell you somthing...sersiously. AHHH!

Legislature approves overturning same-sex marriage ban

what do you think? read here

10 pounds....

So When we started this sugar fast never in a million years did I think I would see major results. After just two weeks I was shocked to weigh my self and realize I had lost 10 POUNDS!!! I am almost back to pre-Joseph weight...crazy.