I feel like this last two weeks have been a journey...well maybe this month has been. Mike was home 5 days in the month of June and I only saw him two of the five. We missed seeing each other at the airport by just about 3 hours. I on my way out and he, coming home..... and once we were BOTH finally home, our kids were gone for a week with grandma.
BUT all that alone ( with three sweet kids!) time this month has come with ups and downs, tired and grouchy, excited and thankful thoughts and feelings. Mostly I am just glad that after a month of craziness we are all under the same roof. The one thing I know is that we are blessed, very blessed. We are relatively healthy, we live in a beautiful home with food in our cupboards and clothes on our childrens backs, who are happy and creative. our car functions properly and we have friends and family who love us.
I could go on, but the point is this blog needs to end up being this..life a journey, and we are all blessed in different ways and to be thankful for them is more important then we often recognize...BUT sometimes finding joy even when things are going right can be HARD. I have learned for me, the hardest battles, the bloodiest, worst, trials of my life often happen on a stage in my own head.
The journey is on going, But I feel thankful for this month where the Lord has helped me to see the worst side of me and the best, helped me to feel loved despite my many flaws, when maybe in my current situation the love doesn't seem to surround me.
We all have to have balance, we have to give to those around us the things we feel we need because mostly likely they need them too. But mostly we just need to Love the Lord with all our hearts, put our complete trust in him and move forward, because when we do that our lives will unfold in a way that we can become stronger and better....I believe that, and I am thankful for the chance the Lord gave me this month to feel a strong sense of love and peace for a few days so I can move forward with a stronger purpose in my heart and be myself now matter what I am surrounded by. Thats when I can do what he needs....when I am just me with the strength of God in my heart and mind, moving forward with eternal purposes intertwined in all I do..
