I have had three days in a row where my morning hours were not totally unbearable. Today I even took the kids to school! though I will say, driving for sure makes me sick....
On Monday Mike refilled my prescription.....and they gave me the same medicine in a different form and I THINK ITS WORKING!
I still can't clean, or cook or bend over very much, lol, BUT to be able to converse or watch a t.v show with out throwing up is an amazing feeling.!! Its trippy.
So next week I get to start working again ( thats sitting in one place and talking on the phone) and I have my 1st dr. appt! =)
and today we are 11 weeks!! ( 10 weeks according to mikes iphone app.)
Thursday, August 30, 2012
Monday, August 27, 2012
I am the dork who didn't know.....
I am the dork who doesn't drink soda....of any kind. I don't like it.
SO when My pregnant body started refusing even water, mike went and got me a pepsi. NOTHING has worked, not ginger this or that, not being shocked or sea bands, not Zofran. But Pepsi did....and I almost started feeling normal. So I drank a lot of it this morning..... but now its gone and I am forced to drink water, and feeling terrible all over.
But I am the Dork who didn't know I would dehydrate myself by only drinking soda. I didn't know because I don't drink it....oh well ....it was nice while it lasted
I need to get off of here now....I will spare you the details.
SO when My pregnant body started refusing even water, mike went and got me a pepsi. NOTHING has worked, not ginger this or that, not being shocked or sea bands, not Zofran. But Pepsi did....and I almost started feeling normal. So I drank a lot of it this morning..... but now its gone and I am forced to drink water, and feeling terrible all over.
But I am the Dork who didn't know I would dehydrate myself by only drinking soda. I didn't know because I don't drink it....oh well ....it was nice while it lasted
I need to get off of here now....I will spare you the details.
constant, hope, and determination
This pregnancy is full of learning experiences about my little family. Yesterday was bad...I couldn't even keep water down ( today has been the same so far) But my little family was so sweet. Mike "freshened up the room" complete with a fresh clean scentsy smell and at one point even though I couldn't talk to them, I was just trying to rest, I was surrounded by every member of my family....all on our bed...while they all quietly read books. It made me feel so loved that because I couldn't be with them doing other things, they would choose to be with me doing whatever it was I could handle.
So after a long day and lots of staring at the wall ( I tried to get on the computer once and threw up with in minutes, so if your not seeing me on here....know its a BAD day.) I was not only thankful for my little family but thoughtful of their individual personalities and how they each bless my life right now.
Constant- She is the one who is quick to get the water as I throw up. Quick to take joey out of the room and read him a book. Quick to bring me any food item I can think of that might help. She never wavers in the help she gives. She is always checking on me, asking lots of questions about the baby. Wants to know what it will be like in the future, which rooms will be switched what items need to be purchased. (which is all fun to talk about, such a nice positive distraction) she is constantly there ready to help,. When I am feeling my worst I can always count on her for any help I may need.
Hope: It took me, oh, about three weeks to appreciate this one. LOL. This little tender guy still runs in to tattle on his siblings. Still insists on jabbering my ear off about throwing up and gross food stories, even when I have my head over the edge of a toilet. He is THRILLED I am bound to this bed because it means an un-moving audience to hear all his storied about xbox and fully details accounts of the last cartoon he watched. I have to admit it drove me INSANE at first. But as time goes on, I appreciate him more and more....and he gives me hope. He reminds me that this is temporary and that very soon I will be out there fixing the fights, cooking the meals, scrubbing the toilets. Very soon I will be able to be the mom that he doesn't even view any different.... again. He reminds me every time he walks through the door of my greatest blessings and how much I love being a mom. It took me a while, but I love this his contribution to this time...he gives me hope.
Determination: This could be the only word to describe the youngest contributor. He DOES NOT give up on me. Every day he brings me stacks of books to read with him. He digs through his toy box looking for the perfect toy to make me "feel better" ...every day...He even has re-tried a few. One day I felt good enough to play his little lightning mcqueen computer with him, Yesterday....guess what made its way to my room ? =) He brought me his fire truck pillow last night so I could sleep better. He is so sweet, he only leaves my side when he HAS to go " watch my shows". He is determined to make mom feel better.
Mike- there is no way to say how thankful I am to him these last few weeks, in all our four pregnancies together, we have never had this much of a burden placed directly on him. He works all day, cooks and cleans, takes the kids to school. he is a single parent....and then he has to "take care of me" with my various cravings and emotions. He has been amazing. I appreciate him more today then I ever thought I could.
So, as I was surrounded on my bed yesterday by my children and husband all quietly reading. I couldn't help but be thankful to my Heavenly Father for the four biggest blessing of my life....I wonder what number five will be like =)
So after a long day and lots of staring at the wall ( I tried to get on the computer once and threw up with in minutes, so if your not seeing me on here....know its a BAD day.) I was not only thankful for my little family but thoughtful of their individual personalities and how they each bless my life right now.
Constant- She is the one who is quick to get the water as I throw up. Quick to take joey out of the room and read him a book. Quick to bring me any food item I can think of that might help. She never wavers in the help she gives. She is always checking on me, asking lots of questions about the baby. Wants to know what it will be like in the future, which rooms will be switched what items need to be purchased. (which is all fun to talk about, such a nice positive distraction) she is constantly there ready to help,. When I am feeling my worst I can always count on her for any help I may need.
Hope: It took me, oh, about three weeks to appreciate this one. LOL. This little tender guy still runs in to tattle on his siblings. Still insists on jabbering my ear off about throwing up and gross food stories, even when I have my head over the edge of a toilet. He is THRILLED I am bound to this bed because it means an un-moving audience to hear all his storied about xbox and fully details accounts of the last cartoon he watched. I have to admit it drove me INSANE at first. But as time goes on, I appreciate him more and more....and he gives me hope. He reminds me that this is temporary and that very soon I will be out there fixing the fights, cooking the meals, scrubbing the toilets. Very soon I will be able to be the mom that he doesn't even view any different.... again. He reminds me every time he walks through the door of my greatest blessings and how much I love being a mom. It took me a while, but I love this his contribution to this time...he gives me hope.
Determination: This could be the only word to describe the youngest contributor. He DOES NOT give up on me. Every day he brings me stacks of books to read with him. He digs through his toy box looking for the perfect toy to make me "feel better" ...every day...He even has re-tried a few. One day I felt good enough to play his little lightning mcqueen computer with him, Yesterday....guess what made its way to my room ? =) He brought me his fire truck pillow last night so I could sleep better. He is so sweet, he only leaves my side when he HAS to go " watch my shows". He is determined to make mom feel better.
Mike- there is no way to say how thankful I am to him these last few weeks, in all our four pregnancies together, we have never had this much of a burden placed directly on him. He works all day, cooks and cleans, takes the kids to school. he is a single parent....and then he has to "take care of me" with my various cravings and emotions. He has been amazing. I appreciate him more today then I ever thought I could.
So, as I was surrounded on my bed yesterday by my children and husband all quietly reading. I couldn't help but be thankful to my Heavenly Father for the four biggest blessing of my life....I wonder what number five will be like =)
Friday, August 24, 2012
good morning.
Today I woke up excited it was Friday. Actually I woke up at 6:15 to Jack doing laundry and olivia doing the dishes ( maybe mike should play mom more often!?!) But its friday and so that means Tomorrow is saturday and I love saturdays.
AND its raining. Which if you have ever lived in AZ, you know that rain in the morning doesn't happen very often. So to have the light drizzle and cool weather during the day....ifs fabulous and cozy and makes me not feel so bad about getting cozy in a blanket on the couch all day.
Craving for the day?? still the strawberry cream thing from sonic.....but I wouldn't mind a little hot chocolate right now either ;)
AND its raining. Which if you have ever lived in AZ, you know that rain in the morning doesn't happen very often. So to have the light drizzle and cool weather during the day....ifs fabulous and cozy and makes me not feel so bad about getting cozy in a blanket on the couch all day.
Craving for the day?? still the strawberry cream thing from sonic.....but I wouldn't mind a little hot chocolate right now either ;)
Thursday, August 23, 2012
pregnancy books
I was thinking of books I could write. But then I realized due to the lack of skills, I shouldn't be writing a book...can you imagine what my editor would have to go through!?
But I thought of two.
1. The Pregnant Gluten Free girl-
This pregnancy has already been so different because of my diet. I would love to get through this next nine months by focusing on sharing the things I learn with those who might face similar challenges. Working through the sickness and craving when half of what you want is forbidden can be a challenge. Making sure your baby is getting the proper nutrition can be overwhelming. I could help. But thats a serious book and as I already mentioned.... the poor editor! I will let my amazing friend Chandice write that one....maybe I can co-author it.....hmmmm... ;)
2. This one is more within my writing skill set: If you give a pregnant girl a cookie. the possibilities are endless for this book....think whole baby showers could be created on the theme of it. It would be every pregnant gals go to book for a laugh. short, full of goofy pictures. I love it!!
thats it.
craving for the day?? Sonic strawberry cream slushy....YUM!
But I thought of two.
1. The Pregnant Gluten Free girl-
This pregnancy has already been so different because of my diet. I would love to get through this next nine months by focusing on sharing the things I learn with those who might face similar challenges. Working through the sickness and craving when half of what you want is forbidden can be a challenge. Making sure your baby is getting the proper nutrition can be overwhelming. I could help. But thats a serious book and as I already mentioned.... the poor editor! I will let my amazing friend Chandice write that one....maybe I can co-author it.....hmmmm... ;)
2. This one is more within my writing skill set: If you give a pregnant girl a cookie. the possibilities are endless for this book....think whole baby showers could be created on the theme of it. It would be every pregnant gals go to book for a laugh. short, full of goofy pictures. I love it!!
thats it.
craving for the day?? Sonic strawberry cream slushy....YUM!
10 weeks =)
I feel like a bit of a whiner on this blog. I try not to whine....I just feel a bit like.....( last big whining session??) I am in my own personal prison. I don't do ANYTHING. I can't watch t.v, cook, clean, read, smell, go anywhere, move around the house, shower, help the kids get ready for school, work, ANYTHING with out getting sick. Its only been two weeks of this but Apparently I am wimpy. That being said, from now on I will try to think more positive and not be such a downer.
I have been extremely blessed to be surrounded by people who have shown lots of love and care for me. I Knew I had great people in my life, but I have been surprised at their willingness to help our family. That has been humbling and amazing. Mike has been wonderful too. He works beyond hard at his job, cleans the house, cooks every meal, does all the laundry and shopping...everything. I can't do anything, so he has been doing it all. Some one want to bring him a treat for me?? =)
AND we have hit 10 weeks today. A little closer to that time when you don't worry about losing the baby as much and the sickness MAY actually start to go away. I have been tracking on-line what the baby is looking like and how my body is changing. Olivia loves to hear about the baby, this week it's the size of a prune and she thinks that is Hilarious! ;) she wanted to know this morning if it had a head yet...it was cute.
Last thought, THANK YOU HEATHER for reading my blog yesterday and helping me feel loved....I wish I could hold your hair for you and bring you any random cravings you have as you finish your pregnancy up. =)
I have been extremely blessed to be surrounded by people who have shown lots of love and care for me. I Knew I had great people in my life, but I have been surprised at their willingness to help our family. That has been humbling and amazing. Mike has been wonderful too. He works beyond hard at his job, cleans the house, cooks every meal, does all the laundry and shopping...everything. I can't do anything, so he has been doing it all. Some one want to bring him a treat for me?? =)
AND we have hit 10 weeks today. A little closer to that time when you don't worry about losing the baby as much and the sickness MAY actually start to go away. I have been tracking on-line what the baby is looking like and how my body is changing. Olivia loves to hear about the baby, this week it's the size of a prune and she thinks that is Hilarious! ;) she wanted to know this morning if it had a head yet...it was cute.
Last thought, THANK YOU HEATHER for reading my blog yesterday and helping me feel loved....I wish I could hold your hair for you and bring you any random cravings you have as you finish your pregnancy up. =)
Wednesday, August 22, 2012
not even mike...
Apparently No one is reading these....not even mike. I causally mentioned my craving from THREE days ago ( muddy buddies ??/ anyone remember??) and he didn't know about it! =( so sad!
I suppose I shouldn't be surprised I said I would blog so I didn't bug people with constant FB updates.
Today was rough. It started rough... and unfortunately I can feel its going to end rough. =( I did get a wonderful visit by my most amazing Visiting teachers Vicki and Sharon. I love those ladies! they are wonderful and so kind. AND Devers came by and gave Mylie a bath and had Joey come play. I have not seen Joey SO excited in a while, poor guy must be so stir crazy!
But yes. Today I still have the same old craving.
Tomorrow is a new day. Maybe I will get to watch t.v with out getting sick. LOL
I suppose I shouldn't be surprised I said I would blog so I didn't bug people with constant FB updates.
Today was rough. It started rough... and unfortunately I can feel its going to end rough. =( I did get a wonderful visit by my most amazing Visiting teachers Vicki and Sharon. I love those ladies! they are wonderful and so kind. AND Devers came by and gave Mylie a bath and had Joey come play. I have not seen Joey SO excited in a while, poor guy must be so stir crazy!
But yes. Today I still have the same old craving.
Tomorrow is a new day. Maybe I will get to watch t.v with out getting sick. LOL
the problem with cravings...
The problem with craving is that they are unpredictable. some times they just go away, sometimes they don't. sometimes they sound amazing only to make you want to puke at the very thought of them...sometimes you can't move on until the craving is satisfied.
I still would love the last two days cravings. But today I am craving something a bit sweet. My mom and sisters make these awesome "cream cheese brownies" and I have a HUGE craving for them - I even know what GF brownie mix would make the best version of it.
But until then I will just chill in bed..because even with taking zofran today, this morning started by chilling in the boys bathroom after breakfast ( to much info?? SORRY!)
I just wish I could MOVE around with out getting so sick. Woke up determined and got a slap in the face...patience never has been one of my finer virtues....
on a positive note, as near as I can calculate with the help of the "what to expect when your expecting" on-line calculator, I am 9 weeks pregnant with the week switching on thursdays...so TOMORROW I will be 10! making slow progress, but hey, I will be 1/4 of the way done right!? =)
I still would love the last two days cravings. But today I am craving something a bit sweet. My mom and sisters make these awesome "cream cheese brownies" and I have a HUGE craving for them - I even know what GF brownie mix would make the best version of it.
But until then I will just chill in bed..because even with taking zofran today, this morning started by chilling in the boys bathroom after breakfast ( to much info?? SORRY!)
I just wish I could MOVE around with out getting so sick. Woke up determined and got a slap in the face...patience never has been one of my finer virtues....
on a positive note, as near as I can calculate with the help of the "what to expect when your expecting" on-line calculator, I am 9 weeks pregnant with the week switching on thursdays...so TOMORROW I will be 10! making slow progress, but hey, I will be 1/4 of the way done right!? =)
Tuesday, August 21, 2012
Todays craving...
P.F Changs.
I want so bad to feel " normal" while I am pregnant. this is my 1st Gluten free pregnancy and its a bit rough in the craving department. P.F changs has a LOT of G.F options....sounds nice to me...and I think the " hidden" ginger that is in many of their recipes is also appealing too. While I don't expect to have this craving full filled anytime soon...a pregnant gal can ( and does) always dream. ( SIGH)
Olivia has been off kilter this last two days, don't know why, but she is throwing CRAZY-HUGE tantrums at night....its hard to help Poor Mike handle them when I feel like I am going to puke on her.
Last thought, I need to re-figure out how many weeks I am...somewhere between 8-10....I think...but the whole Heller family ( minus mom) has decided its twins..to be specific 1 boy and 1 girl. Its all they talk about, I sure hope they aren't disappointing after the first appointment when we find out I only have 1 cutie in the there.
I want so bad to feel " normal" while I am pregnant. this is my 1st Gluten free pregnancy and its a bit rough in the craving department. P.F changs has a LOT of G.F options....sounds nice to me...and I think the " hidden" ginger that is in many of their recipes is also appealing too. While I don't expect to have this craving full filled anytime soon...a pregnant gal can ( and does) always dream. ( SIGH)
Olivia has been off kilter this last two days, don't know why, but she is throwing CRAZY-HUGE tantrums at night....its hard to help Poor Mike handle them when I feel like I am going to puke on her.
Last thought, I need to re-figure out how many weeks I am...somewhere between 8-10....I think...but the whole Heller family ( minus mom) has decided its twins..to be specific 1 boy and 1 girl. Its all they talk about, I sure hope they aren't disappointing after the first appointment when we find out I only have 1 cutie in the there.
rants...
Since being pregnant the thing I notice about myself, that probably sticks out most, ( past the sickness) would be my heightened level of emotion. I like to be a laid back, roll with it, move on if its too intense, kind of a girl....but that's not my natural personality and it has taken years of work to begin to become that type of person.....out the window when you are pregnant.
Every thing is super sad....or REALLY ANNOYING....or, the world is GOING to end because this whatever moment and task is just SO important!!! So I find my self more prone to need to "vent" or rant as a release to these emotions that normally would just roll off my back...
NOW Aren't you so glad you took the time to pop on over to my blog! ;)
So A few things that I am bugged about:
1. Politics: They are ridiculous right now more then ever. I Have had the opportunity to watch LOTS of news lately....and Just find myself annoyed! Is any one worried about the direction of our country or are we just going to worry about what the Presidents Favorite color is and if Mitt has the "likable" factor in big enough proportions to win.
What about the Akin guy?? I mean I am not saying I agree with what he said about rape, and its true that it's a very sensitive subject, BUT-I just think its crazy when we live in a world where you mis-speak, or maybe even have a really mis-guided thought process and your whole life is on national t.v and you are called a terrible person. What happened to free speech?? Don't vote for the dork, remove his funding if you disagree, but goodness drag him family through the mud and ruin any future they might have seems a bit far. On ABC news this morning the line on the screen was " the GOP'S shakin' over Akin". WOW. That one fool ( who is paying the price for bad comments) is going to somehow tilt the presidential race??? Are we so small minded that we would let it?? I hope not!! and It makes me mad that apparently the media thinks the average American is.
And the double standard is crazy. There were politician skinny dipping in the sea of Galilee this last weekend. They aren't getting near the news time and I think what they did in a drunken stupor is worse....GROW UP politicians and lead the way we elected you too! So bugged.
Joe Biden....The guy says more stupid things then any other politician and gets away with it. BUT beyond all that I just question 1 thing. Is this really the best we can do for one of the highest offices in the land??? I mean, If something happened to our President, Biden is the top dog. YIKES!! who is scared!?!???? Thats who I have to place my trust in??? Heaven help us....seriously.
Past politics, I get annoyed with stupid little things all day, I won't go into the details because sometimes we have to be careful to not let 1 negative emotion brand us as the kind of person we will be forever. Writing down my negative thoughts won't help your view of my improve and it won't help MY view of me either.
But I have found that I need to get feeling better so I can stop thinking " daily pinning on pinterest is actually an important part of your day" thats when you have to worry about your state of mind and life. lol
Daily craving is the same as yesterday, but I am extra sick today so not even that sounds that good. =(
I am grateful for Mike more then ever this week. He has made dinner every night, kept the house livable and taken over in pretty much everything. He even works hard to keep my cravings at bay. I love him and I am thankful for this chance to see him step up and into our lives in a way I didn't know he would ( sounds meaner then I mean it. he is always wonderful...just I am surprised at the absolute amount of love and willingness he has taken everything on) (( good surprised))
o.k I really am just rambling. Love ya all!
Every thing is super sad....or REALLY ANNOYING....or, the world is GOING to end because this whatever moment and task is just SO important!!! So I find my self more prone to need to "vent" or rant as a release to these emotions that normally would just roll off my back...
NOW Aren't you so glad you took the time to pop on over to my blog! ;)
So A few things that I am bugged about:
1. Politics: They are ridiculous right now more then ever. I Have had the opportunity to watch LOTS of news lately....and Just find myself annoyed! Is any one worried about the direction of our country or are we just going to worry about what the Presidents Favorite color is and if Mitt has the "likable" factor in big enough proportions to win.
What about the Akin guy?? I mean I am not saying I agree with what he said about rape, and its true that it's a very sensitive subject, BUT-I just think its crazy when we live in a world where you mis-speak, or maybe even have a really mis-guided thought process and your whole life is on national t.v and you are called a terrible person. What happened to free speech?? Don't vote for the dork, remove his funding if you disagree, but goodness drag him family through the mud and ruin any future they might have seems a bit far. On ABC news this morning the line on the screen was " the GOP'S shakin' over Akin". WOW. That one fool ( who is paying the price for bad comments) is going to somehow tilt the presidential race??? Are we so small minded that we would let it?? I hope not!! and It makes me mad that apparently the media thinks the average American is.
And the double standard is crazy. There were politician skinny dipping in the sea of Galilee this last weekend. They aren't getting near the news time and I think what they did in a drunken stupor is worse....GROW UP politicians and lead the way we elected you too! So bugged.
Joe Biden....The guy says more stupid things then any other politician and gets away with it. BUT beyond all that I just question 1 thing. Is this really the best we can do for one of the highest offices in the land??? I mean, If something happened to our President, Biden is the top dog. YIKES!! who is scared!?!???? Thats who I have to place my trust in??? Heaven help us....seriously.
Past politics, I get annoyed with stupid little things all day, I won't go into the details because sometimes we have to be careful to not let 1 negative emotion brand us as the kind of person we will be forever. Writing down my negative thoughts won't help your view of my improve and it won't help MY view of me either.
But I have found that I need to get feeling better so I can stop thinking " daily pinning on pinterest is actually an important part of your day" thats when you have to worry about your state of mind and life. lol
Daily craving is the same as yesterday, but I am extra sick today so not even that sounds that good. =(
I am grateful for Mike more then ever this week. He has made dinner every night, kept the house livable and taken over in pretty much everything. He even works hard to keep my cravings at bay. I love him and I am thankful for this chance to see him step up and into our lives in a way I didn't know he would ( sounds meaner then I mean it. he is always wonderful...just I am surprised at the absolute amount of love and willingness he has taken everything on) (( good surprised))
o.k I really am just rambling. Love ya all!
Monday, August 20, 2012
mommy needs some rest.
I have been in bed A LOT....I mean...A LOT I went to bed four hours ago and intend to go back as soon as this post is over.....
Joey and all the kids keep hearing the phrase " mommy needs rest" or "mommy needs some rest right now so she can feel better"
Joey has more then once ran into his room and dug through his toy box looking for something to help. He is so sweet!! But I think one of the sweetest moments was when I heard him say " mommy needs a rest, got to find mommy a rest"
He just thought " a rest" must be laying in his toy box ready waiting to solve all of mommies problems. I love him!! It was So sweet. So every time I "go rest" I am jostled awake by joey handing me a rocket or guitar, or computer thinking just maybe...it will work in place of " a rest".
Joey and all the kids keep hearing the phrase " mommy needs rest" or "mommy needs some rest right now so she can feel better"
Joey has more then once ran into his room and dug through his toy box looking for something to help. He is so sweet!! But I think one of the sweetest moments was when I heard him say " mommy needs a rest, got to find mommy a rest"
He just thought " a rest" must be laying in his toy box ready waiting to solve all of mommies problems. I love him!! It was So sweet. So every time I "go rest" I am jostled awake by joey handing me a rocket or guitar, or computer thinking just maybe...it will work in place of " a rest".
todays craving...
Today I want more then anything Some Chex mix Muddy buddies (THANK YOU CHANDICE- its your fault I have this craving)....you know those wonderful things you make at home with chex mix and chocolate and powdered sugar??? YUM.
I must admit I make mine a bit different. I use ALMOND BUTTER in them and then use a dairy free dark chocolate ( I think it Girradeli?)....they are heaven and if I had a car right now I might risk the puking to get the ingredients at walmart....probably not, but I like to think I am brave like that. So if any one IS going to the store, give me a ring and I will pay you at the door...lol
I also would like to sate the fact that if we have a girl I want her to be named Adalee Marie Heller. I think its cute. ( now its just convincing Mike that its a good idea) and Adalee and Olivia seem to work together in my mind. If its a boy....I suppose he would have some cute J name since we already have two j's...any suggestions?
And my last thought of the moment has to do with my Grandmother. I am not sure why, but with all three of my pregnancies I have felt her presence. Its so strong, I think She knows how much I need her. But I miss her a lot when I am pregnant because its like she is here but not. She said shortly before her death to me that this would be one of the things she regretted, not being able to be here for all this part of our lives. I thinks she here, I feel her, but I still miss her....
there you go, first crazy entry of about a million for the fourth and final pregnancy of Brigette Heller. =)
I must admit I make mine a bit different. I use ALMOND BUTTER in them and then use a dairy free dark chocolate ( I think it Girradeli?)....they are heaven and if I had a car right now I might risk the puking to get the ingredients at walmart....probably not, but I like to think I am brave like that. So if any one IS going to the store, give me a ring and I will pay you at the door...lol
I also would like to sate the fact that if we have a girl I want her to be named Adalee Marie Heller. I think its cute. ( now its just convincing Mike that its a good idea) and Adalee and Olivia seem to work together in my mind. If its a boy....I suppose he would have some cute J name since we already have two j's...any suggestions?
And my last thought of the moment has to do with my Grandmother. I am not sure why, but with all three of my pregnancies I have felt her presence. Its so strong, I think She knows how much I need her. But I miss her a lot when I am pregnant because its like she is here but not. She said shortly before her death to me that this would be one of the things she regretted, not being able to be here for all this part of our lives. I thinks she here, I feel her, but I still miss her....
there you go, first crazy entry of about a million for the fourth and final pregnancy of Brigette Heller. =)
future baby #4!!
Most know already, But I think I will post it on here just for journal keeping sake. HELLER # FOUR IS ON HIS?? HER??? WAY!!
I think we found out I was pregnant the second the magical stick could tell us, so we tried really hard to wait and tell the kids. I tried to act normal for about two week.....and then it came....the sickness. =(
So we had to tell the kids why mommy was simply not going to get better any time soon and why I needed so much more of their patience and help.
I had a fun Idea to have my sister come and take pictures of the moment we told them. We simply told them by handing them a sign that said I was having a baby. It worked perfect and I couldn't love my sister more for helping with it and I LOVE LOVE THE pictures. so I will post those next.
I am super sick, but optimistic that I will regain at least a part of my mornings since the past three days have gone MUCH better.
Love you all enjoy the pictures!
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