Satan's in the scorpians

For those of you whom I love but had to move aways from, you all know what my number 2 fear was Scorpions. Literally, I had nightmares over the creepy things. I had to pray about it, about my intense fear of them. I realized moving forward with faith was pretty much the only choice I had, I mean the other option??? Would be to not move because of a fear that I was ASSURED by multiple sources would never come to fruition. Let me tell you how that's panned out for me:

Day one, moving in day. Mike and I pray together thank our Father in Heaven for our MANY blessings, as we move in, Mike steps on something, making a huge crunching noise...the victim? a HUGE scorpion!!! I am talking movie size people.

Week two, I am helping devers move into her new home. I am feeling on top of the world, spiritually and emotionally. Stronger then ever, notice something out of the corner of my eye.... scorpion. My sweet niece is running around with her shoes off, so I kill it. I try not to freak out the rest of the day. ( we also accidentally killed a lizard in her house that same day (still SO sorry little guy)

Month two, after overcoming a few emotional trials through turning to My Father in Heaven, I wake up feeling ready to go and conquer my challenges, notice what LOOKS LIKE (sorry if this grosses you out) a large booger on my wall. I get close enough to realize its not a very gross booger BUT a baby scorpion..AHH! kill it. Feel itchy for a week. still shaking all my clothes and towels out....

TWO days ago. Mike has been traveling a lot, after a week by myself I can feel my self growing spiritually in some really awesome ways! loving it! I am ready to get up and make a difference in the world, oh yes...you know what comes next.... Olivia spots a LARGE scorpion, IN MY BEDROOM.

After some contemplating I have decided there is just no way around it. Satan is in My scorpion's. Each time I feel a big rush of spiritual happiness, I am greeted the next morning by one of my biggest fears. hmmmm. Coincidence? I don't know???It's almost like a message to not forget the opposition.

But let me tell you what. Lucky for me, the Lord knew all along what I can handle. I am finding that while I am constantly facing this stupid fear, I am learning what my real trials and fears were after all, and best of all, I am learning that I can conquer them. It may not be pretty( really its NOT pretty), it may take longer then I would like, but I can face the scariest things in my life, and even with some dignity. Or at least I would like to think I can.

But the bottom line in all this jumbled mess is a lesson I seem to be learning over and over ( thank you to book club for THE HIDING PLACE BY CORI TEN BOOM) its not how I face them, BUT, if I do it by my self or if I face my hardships with the Lord trusting in his knowledge grace and power. When I try my self I fail...every time, then I feel like junk. When I face my sorrows and fears and struggles by prayer and turning them over to the Lord, well, I might have to kill a few scorpions, but I make it through, and I feel stronger and more couragous then I knew was ever possible.

So now that I have had confession hour, Check my face book status in the morning( haha), I bet ya I might just be killing my worst fear....