Double vision

I am a hot mess, really, I am.  My mind wanders constantly, I day dream when I shouldn't...have you ever talked to me oh the phone? Did I even listen to you? I did..whew!!You were one of the lucky few...and to every one else SORRY!!!!

 I struggle, not because I don't care, or the HUGE event next week isn't a priority....I just can't focus, its like seeing double vision when I try.

Some of you MAY think you know me differently. Some of you may actually think I do crazy amounts of stuff and keep it together and EVEN take a bath every day and manage to get makeup on. Well, let me tell you a secret. You only KIND OF know me. You know the good version of me, when I am "on my game", got it all together, yes, I even might feel like superwoman as I manage it all.....but I feel guilty for misleading you. 

So let me set the record straight. Yesterday as I was going through the list of " to do's" for the ward Luau on Saturday and I found my self praying out loud ( joey was giving me very funny looks! LOL) but The prayer in and of its self was not unusual for me. I prayed for the Lord to help my brain function, to help me stay calm and FOCUS, I prayed for the strength to concentrate and keep my family first. 

Did the Lord help me? Yes, he always does. When I am honest with The Lord and come to him with a pure heart( which is SO MUCH HARDER to do, then it is to write in a blog), I am never let down, and In turn the Lord helps me to be the Super woman I can not be on my own. 

So there it is, plain and simple. Honesty with the Lord and a prayer for help= focus which then benefits those around me. When I take credit for it, I lose my focus, but If I always remember him and the blessings he is continually blessing me with, then he allows me to do amazing thing. Its simple really, why do I forget it so often? I don't know. Maybe writing it out will help =) and now you know the secret.