my- my ya ya

Yes, I realize I just posted about her, but, also in that fun car ride yesterday we talked about moms belly, the baby,all the things it can do and what is learning to do, and of course why it is not ready quite yet to make its entrance into the world- just yet. By the end of the conversation she seemed to be satisfied that all her technical questions had been answered..... so we finished with this:

"why do moms still look pregnant after they have babies?"

Makes a pregnant mom feel good doesn't it?

OLIVIA!

So a couple of Months ago Olivia became curious about how a person goes about getting married. we talked about all the qualities she would want to look for and then I told her about going on dates and how she had plenty of time, so not to worry just yet...in fact, not until she was 16.

In her preschool and primary class there is really only one boy who may in the future fit her requirements and who she gets along with. Unfortunately, he seems to be spoken for by another sweet girl younger then olivia, when this was brought to Olivias attention we had a conversation that went like this:

"mom......so Katharine is going to marry Joel, right?"
"well, SHE says she is, but a lot can change before they are old enough to marry each other, maybe they won't like each other..who knows. why, do YOU like him?"
(there was a long embarrassed pause)
"olivia?????"
"WELL ITS NOT LIKE THERE ARE A LOT OF OPTIONS HERE!"

So, that was cute and fun, then yesterday as we were driving to get new kindergarten clothes, the questions started again. we talked about dating and how you find a guy you like and you go to dinner or a movie or to do a fun thing and if you like the guy you go again and if hes not just perfect then you move on. so here was what she told me:

" well mom I don't think I am going to marry Joel"
"why not?"
"because I saw him being mean to his brother and thats making bad choices, so that puts an X on him"
"well honey I think you have lots of time to figure this out, so I don't think you need to worry just yet, remember you go on dates until you find the right man?"
" Yeah its o.k that I don't marry Joel..... because I am going to find me the PERFECT man!"

SO watch our all you Perfect 5-7 year old boys...Olivia is coming to get you!

goofy little ones

This week I have been getting a big kick out of watching Jack and Olivia . Olivias funny moments come when she thinks no one is watching. When I am not in the room Olivia sings at the top of her lungs! she also puts her little imagination in gear and I can tell she is seeing a world I can never be a part of....yes she tells me all the time; Whenever she or Jackson are playing pretend and I try to join in, I get " MOM! we are JUST PRETENDING!" and I am not allowed to join the fun. =( so sad for me. But I do enjoy watching all the same. Olivia is going to be a "rock'n roll star, a firefighter, a doctor and a mom" Usually when no one is around she is being one of those things. her newest thing this week is to rub my belly ALL over and talk to the baby, which is really sweet and sometimes funny but a little weird for me; but she is so excited for a sister that I could never tell her to stop.

Jackson, well what can you say a bout the goofy little one? He does not have to be in a room by him self to pretend. Yesterday he informed me (very seriously of course) that there was a TIGER in his shirt! "and it is a mean one". I have more laughing out loud, throw my hands up in the air- because there is nothing else to do- moments with him then I ever thought possible! Yesterday he got shots. he apparently was SO hurt he could not walk, I know, poor guy! so we carried him every where, he cried all through family home evening, then, magically when we were at a friends for dinner and there was a swing he could not resist, he could walk...small miracles are taking place right here in the heller family! My favorite thing he does is when he is having a happy moment, he marches around the room putting one arm in the air at a time with his little head going from side to side singing his happy song- that he only knows because he made it up. it goes who-who-----who, who-who----who! for any one who would like to hear it the notes are usually: high cc-g, cc-g. so you can go play it for your self!

I can only imagine what number three will bring to this family. I worry a little that she will be the girly girly princess I always thought I would have. ...because A true princess comes with a lot of drama and attitude and I don't know if we are ready for that! but no matter what I am excited to get to know her!

Well hello Little one!

Yesterday was the big day! It maybe was the longest ultra sound of my life. Mike was not allowed to be in the first part and I couldn't look at the screen. so for half and hour I laid there anxiously waiting to get mike in the room and to see our sweet one! when it finally came time to see it, of course as with all my children, she was stubborn...yes SHE had her back to us and legs crossed tight! but in the end we got a good enough look that the technician told us she is 90% sure it was a girl. so we are going on 90% and if SHE comes out a HE I guess it will be good that I have boy clothes in storage!
Last night we had an ultra sound party. channeling our inner survivor after dinner I had special box (our disinfected small trash can) and every one had to go up one at a time and write there answer, fold it up and pout it in the container. Mike was our Jeff probst, he of course did a great job! after the last vote was read I had hid a little out fit we bought yesterday under the votes so mike pulled it out! It was fun! poor Jack was sad, but Olivia is SUPER excited. so far very few name ideas but the one that seems to be haning around is Adrianna Elissabeth Heller. we shall see!

I want to know something!

Here I am sitting in my house with weird thoughts running through my head and I want to know something! how do I figure out when my crazy thoughts are just that, crazy, and when they are inspiration. Some of my craziest thoughts have also been the time when I was able to be where the lord needed me to be. BUT lately it seems I am off the inspiration wagon. so how do I know?
Yes pray, read, ask. Its seems I keep getting the answer "your a smart girl figure it out." but every time I do. I am more then wrong. so if any one knows...send me the answer! Because crazy thoughts are a runnin' and I can't figure out if I am pregnant and losing it or the Lord is trying to teach me something. HAVE A GREAT DAY!

feeling that baby

This morning The alarm went off every 7 minutes from 6:15 to 7:15. Normally, this would be enough to set me in an ornery mood for a few hours of the morning,my poor kids. But this morning as I laid there wide awake, I was very aware of the little one moving and kicking as if to say "hello,are you ready for me?". The best part was when I put Mikes hand on my tummy and all the sudden the little one kicked. I looked at him and he just smiled. Until today all the movements have been random and unpredictable, this morning for a good twenty minutes they were constant and steady. It makes the nausea I am feeling right now a little more bearable!

the big week end!

Well the week end was GREAT we had ranner and Tyrell over. Mostly we just relaxed and ate. so basically it was perfect. We did have our traditional flag ceremony with Jackson using his tool belt as the flag holster, saying the pledge and then at the high point in the Star Spangled Banner we had a fly over (it could not have been timed more perfectly) of a crop duster, Mike said he arranged it, thats why we love him! we went up to Gridley for a program put on by the city mike and his friend Jesse played at it. Mike is getting really good with his trombone again! In the evening we spent time up at big grandmas where we talked ate and the kids had somersault contest and hopping contest and of course finished the night with a grand fire work show! thanks mike and tyrell!

On saturday, I got to introduce Carianne to the world of IKEA. I think she see things differently now...just kidding. but it was fun. then the boys made us a barbque feast and we had Brocks. it was a great weekend! I am so thankful that I have had so much family up here lately! it has been wonderful. I hope you all had a great fourth of July!

the doctor!

today was my monthly doctors visit. my new doctor seems nice enough but not exactly talkative, just business and then your out! But the good news is the Ultra-sound was scheduled today!!! so in two weeks, July 15th, we will get to take a peek and see the little one! then the name deciding can REALLY begin.

this week has seemed weird we have been SUPER busy with many things going on every day. and yet it feels weird with out livy around. But, its been a good chance to grow closer with Jackson and get to know him for the amazing little man he is. what I am learning is:

1. that we have some more things to work on to be ready for the baby to come.

2. how incredibly smart he is

3. he has such strong views on everything! he is a lot like his dad. Don't I say that about Olivia too?? well maybe the third one will be more like me! =)

4. he is more of a drama king then I have previously acknowledged

5. He has a huge heart and when he loves some thing or some one, you can feel every ounce of it. A Jackson hug can make a whole day better!

I hope every one is having a great week! MAYBE by next week I will have found my cord for the camera and can get some pictures going. HAPPY 4TH!!!