before th water hit him....

after the water hit him!

he wouldn't take his towel off!

how cute is that?

This week we have been playing like crazy here are a few pictures my sister took of us at the BEACH!!

haven't blogged in a while

o.k so I know I haven't blogged in a while. I have all these thoughts running through my head but I just can figure out how to put them into writing. so for those of you who might wonder what I have been doing, here is a short list:

working on keeping my house cleaner, each day the kids and I make up individual chore list and clean.

reading reading reading with Ya ya ( she read almost 100 pages of a 1st grade text book yesterday)

painting with the kids

I made 24 jars of Cherry Jam, four of them are quart size

Eating a lot of cherry jam, on bagels, cheese cake and last night on brownies with cream cheese frosting.

I made 17 jars of strawberry jam.

Cleaning poop. Jackson is having issues. Every twenty minutes we go through a ritual of cleaning his bum while he screams because its painful for him. I took him to the dr. today, looks like we have to "re-train" his bowel muscle ( sounds like fun huh?)

Doing a lot of laundry ( I put jackson back in diapers yesterday)

teaching Joey to crawl- which I may regret the second he can do it =)

enrichment, got to get things in order.....

And really the thing that consumes most my thoughts are the many people I love that are struggling with thing SO big

and then there's the impeding move. the where, when, and how's are all questions I am trying to wrangle in my head and get answers to.

So basically I spend a lot of time looking at the computer trying to get answers it can't give me. I am re-thinking my strategies these days. last night after a very long day at 12:00 a.m I dove into the scriptures, I know they may not say " move to fresno" or "stay right where you are" in them- but I also know when I am really reading them I am letting the Lord into my life, which we always need and right now more then ever.

DIZZY!

I AM DIZZY! Today we started "school" with the kids. We had journal time and learned about the weather. For our art project we dropped paint on paper shaped like clouds and blew the paint all over. It was fun except the paint was thick- so if you wanted it to look cool you had to blow REALLY hard. my fingers and toes are still tingling becuase I helped the kids when they ran out of energy and I had to make one to! =) they turned out cute we talked about how hard the wind must blow to really get leaves and trees moving and take off tiles on roofs. at one point the lid came off my paint and splattered everywhere, we laughed pretty hard and now my kitchen and Us three are covered in blue dots. I love summer.

bruises

I have bruises, I mean I have them ALL over my body. you know when you sit down and cross you legs, the part where your legs over lap there are a HUGE amount of bruises, all from just crossing my legs. I have bruises where Joey stands on my legs and bruises on my arms from carrying heavy or awkward things. then the other night I scratched myself and I felt some thing on my arm ( it was dark, I was in bed) and it was blood! running down my arm, actually it was more like gushing. form just a tiny scratch. so I just wondered if any one knows what you do to help bruises because obviously my body needs something, I also wondered if this isn't all connected to having no energy which I just blogged about. help would be great here.

Trying to hide, not going so well....

This last year at school was amazing, there were ups and downs and twist all around, but in the end we loved it. I was pretty involved in Livys class even with the fact that I was very pregnant the first half and had a new baby the last half. So When it all came to a crazy finish last week I thought I would be sad. Can I tell you- I think I have a major, did to much, pushed myself to hard hang over? Seriously my whole body aches and No matter what I try to do its like I just don't have the energy. OH MAN, its starting to get me.
So I decided a few days Ago I would disappear and recover. Not answer calls, try not to do anything, I haven't even tried to really do my hair or make up just enough to be presentable. but I suppose its not meant to be, because my master plan of disappearing is just not happening. I have this strange feeling that the rest of my life will be crazy like this, just a hunch, but when I look into the future I can't see where anytime soon it will slow down, in fact I see the opposite. anyway, I have no idea where this little rant is headed. I just wonder what is the secret to having energy in life? I know a few people out there who seem to have it, so whats the secret? how do I do everything I need and enjoy it because I have energy? when you don't have energy everything in life seems harder and more frustrating. so how do I get it? because I want to enjoy life not be frustrated because I am dragging myself through it.

kindergarten graduation

SHE DID IT! through all the drama, tears and fun. Olivia has completed her first year of school! her and I have had made many new friends and as the days have gone on a part of me is so sad for this year to end. She has had an amazing teacher! I am so thankful for all the experiences this crazy year has brought us. so here are some fun pictures! and her walking to get her "diploma"

inspiration

You always hear something about learning from the mouth of babes or children being the teachers to parents. I often find this is 100% true. I love children and how happy and honest they are. I like their view of the world sometimes much more then that of adults. Jackson had a dr appt. on tuesday. He has a ear infection ( now every child in this house has had one in the last month) and the Dr. decided he has asthma ( which I am not sure about her diagnoses) so he has been Using a nebulizer about three times a day, which makes him emotional and HYPER. with sudden crashes at the end of his hypeness. But the thing I have learned from him is joy in all things. He actually begs me to do a treatment, even though he feels weird and crazy afterward. For some reason, he just loves the "nubby" and smiles the whole time he uses it. He just is happy in almost all he does, and it reminded me that no matter what we are going through big or small, there is always joy to be found in the Journey. I love him. I am thankful to have learned this principle so many times in my life that I can feel it becoming a strong part of who I am.

Big boy food!

Last night Joey had his first bowel of rice cereal. You would never know it by the pictures but he loved it and ate every last bite of it. The kids were so excited to see him eat "real" food, thought hey were slightly disappointed by how yucky rice cereal smelled and looked. We have waited longer to start him on food then our other two, its amazing at the difference. He is so much more ready to eat. The only problem is that he wants to use his own hands the whole time and for some reason he has a very worried face the whole time he eats. Maybe he is scared mom will take it away! lol. I am so sad he is getting big so fast. why can't they stay little longer? I just realized I have a mean look on my face, Lets just say people were a little over excited and there had to be reminding of personal boundaries.....