haven't blogged in a while

o.k so I know I haven't blogged in a while. I have all these thoughts running through my head but I just can figure out how to put them into writing. so for those of you who might wonder what I have been doing, here is a short list:

working on keeping my house cleaner, each day the kids and I make up individual chore list and clean.

reading reading reading with Ya ya ( she read almost 100 pages of a 1st grade text book yesterday)

painting with the kids

I made 24 jars of Cherry Jam, four of them are quart size

Eating a lot of cherry jam, on bagels, cheese cake and last night on brownies with cream cheese frosting.

I made 17 jars of strawberry jam.

Cleaning poop. Jackson is having issues. Every twenty minutes we go through a ritual of cleaning his bum while he screams because its painful for him. I took him to the dr. today, looks like we have to "re-train" his bowel muscle ( sounds like fun huh?)

Doing a lot of laundry ( I put jackson back in diapers yesterday)

teaching Joey to crawl- which I may regret the second he can do it =)

enrichment, got to get things in order.....

And really the thing that consumes most my thoughts are the many people I love that are struggling with thing SO big

and then there's the impeding move. the where, when, and how's are all questions I am trying to wrangle in my head and get answers to.

So basically I spend a lot of time looking at the computer trying to get answers it can't give me. I am re-thinking my strategies these days. last night after a very long day at 12:00 a.m I dove into the scriptures, I know they may not say " move to fresno" or "stay right where you are" in them- but I also know when I am really reading them I am letting the Lord into my life, which we always need and right now more then ever.