Going home

Tommorow we head back home. Its weird when you leave a place for two weeks how every thing seems to change and yet nothing changes at all. I love being with my family, I always feel a bit more...me. when I come home my family is here and we dance and sing and act goofy. when I come home I feel like I look better because my cute younger sisters inspire me to try just a little bit to not be the " gross older sister". I feel safe here, so do my kids and I often see a side of them come out that is rarley seen, even by me, anywhere else. I miss my family all the time, except when I am with them. Funny how now that I live so far away I miss so much.

But, I am glad to go home. Our home which mike and I have created for OUR family. A place where we learn together and work hard together. My home teaches me every day for good and bad, its my testing grounds. who I become really depends on what I do each day in my home. Before I left I was not handeling the test all that well.

This break has been good, I am ready, recharged. Bring it on baseboards and meltdowns, I am going to learn to conquer you someday! maybe I will need a few more vacations along the line, but this break has helped me to be ready for whats coming....... whatever it is, its big. Change is in the air, I can feel it. but for the first time- in a long time- ready for it.

Not mine?? WHAT!?!

So a few months ago I recived a call that I thought was extrodinary! I was able to upgrade a certian item in my house, which gets a lot of use and replace it with a bigger better model. While it was hard to get rid of the old one for sentimental reasons, I knew it was o.k becuase I was getting something better. Well, yesterday I got an e-mail informing me that my fun new item was not actually mine and apparently only being borrowed until at any point its owner decideds they may want it back AND when they decide that they want it back ( if they do) then they may come get it that very day. The letter closed with a thanks for using the item and enjoying it during this time.

SAY WHAT??!!? So here I am in shock and tears becuase NOW I will not have this item AT ALL in my house. When it was given to me never at any point was I told it was just on loan! We fixed it a little and have loved having it and now I am being told that it could just be removed. Part of me wants to fight this really hard, but living where I do in the town I do, I don't think it would be a good idea. just to much to get involved in. so yeah, this week has been getting better every day.

The can update: she has surgery tommorow. the doctors still aren't sure what it is but they will remove a peice of it and figure it out tommorow. we are praying pretty hard for her right now.

Today Joseph is feeling much, much better. Just one look from grandpa got BIG smiles and a little talking got uncontrolable laughter, so here is just the last part of Joseph laughing.

oh ranner!

Today my mom and sister and her husband left for the mayo clinic in AZ. Our hopes are high that she will finally get awnsers for what is going on! I would say more but I am not sure if she would appreciate my doing so, but any one who knows her or even if you don't, and you just need some one to pray for, I would apprecite it and so would she! Some one who is so amazing with so much life to have still, should not have to deal with all she has. anyway, that is where my heart and mind are today, with my sister and best friend Carianne. Love you can!!!

If you tell a lie....

To in order to come down to so-cal these two weeks I felt like I had to bring Olivia. Well the school system doesn't understand Helping family out as an excuse for being absent, so after talking with one of my friends I realized the only way I would be able to keep her out of school with out getting into trouble would be to say she was sick. Now I must say two things, first, I HATE lies of all kinds, even when half of the craziness in life seems to come from trying to be totally honest. second, to ease my burden of the lie I told my self it was o.k because she has had a bad infection, which I have medicine for. so this is how my week has gone each day waking up to realize I have to tell my daily Lie and feeling bad about it. SO........

If you tell a lie, you might just feel really bad. When you feel real bad The Lord may take pity on you, when he takes pity on you he will want to ease your burdens. To ease your burden The lord will then bless you with sickness, not only for you but for all your children too. when you get sick you might get worn down, but its o.k because you are the one who told the lie!

Yes we are ALL sick even my sweet baby Joseph. yuck. guess I don't have to lie any more.

A loss for words

I had a favorite aunt of mine say she loves to read my blog and when I don't blog she is dissapointed, so I thought this morning I would get up and write. Some thing crazy has happend however, that I am pretty sure has NEVER happened before- I am at a loss of what to write. Being down south has been a lot of fun! we have convinced Jack that livy could fly, sat out side in the 85 degree weather, made a fabulous trip to the dollar store, made cute soap bottles, and watchedthe worlds cutest babies talk to each other. so far so good. hopefully I will come up with somthing interesting tommorow!

SO Yesterday morning as we were getting ready for church I decided to come down to so cal. lol. it was a bit crazy. BUT I am glad I am here to help out while mom goes to AZ with carianne. so I guess I will be blogging from down south for the next two weeks while I juggle the two babies and livy and Jack. As a side note. this weekend Joseph found his thumb, he is in love!