Halloween on Wednesday....

Yesterday was the ward Party so we all got dressed up, jack for the first time. No one still could guess who I was even with Tinkerbell And "happin hook" with me, but thats o.k I guess. The kids had a blast and I can see why Olivia Likes tinker bell so much, I think she somehow realates to her! They both have very sassy stubborn personalities, its funny so Olivia is the perfect Tink.

pumpkin carving

Last night we carved two of our four pumpkins! I love carving pumpkins and so does Mike, so we were pretty excited about it all week. Well, that is until Jack got four shots, Olivia got one, we ate at taco bell and it made us all sick, so by 8:oo we were wondering if it was really worth it to keep every one up to do carve them or if we should try again on Thursday. you can see our choice- it was fun! We had a boys agaisnts girls contest ( girls won don't you think?) Jack refused to get in and dirty because his legs "hurt to bad" to move, so he just sat there in the middle commenting on everything we did, which drove Olivia CRAZY becuase he was ruining the contest by telling dad our every move! When he did get dirty he had to wipe his hands afterwards. Olivia loved every minute of it and did most of the dirty work for our team, Infact I have never stayed so clean, it was sad for me! lol. It was fun! Even though by nine we were wiped out and both kids were screaming from exaustion, I am glad we went for it!

just so no one wonders....

I realize that the picture at the top of my blog is......beautiful? see I wanted a cute picture up there but as I went through all the pictures from the last year I realized we have very few of us all together and they ALL look like this. In the end its kind of funny becuase you see our personalities.

Mike: so dang handsome but just never willing to give the camera his full smile!
me: yes I am the only one looking directly at the camera and cheezing it...I have now excuse, and I don't feel ashamed about it ethier! =)
Olivia: her class was getting ready to leave and she could not stop for two seconds to get a picture, she was only concerned with what was coming next.
Jack: he is being goofy, he is always being goofy, that or crying dramatically.

See, so I We will work on carianne getting us some nice pictures at christmas, but until then, why not show us off for who we really are!

The battle

So today I had a dr. appt. basically nothing has changed from last time I was checked which is good. He told me at this point if I were to go into labor he would not do any thing to stop me. So I guess that is good to....but I am struggling because- now even though I know I shouldn't get up and get every thing done that has been driving me crazy, I really WANT too. Since he didn't say keep up the bed rest I am having this inner battle, every part of me wants to get this baby here.....and then there is mike and a tiny sane part of me that knows its still to early and that the ultimate goal is to have a healthy strong baby, which means stay down for a couple more weeks. Until then I find myself acting like a child and sneaking in cleaning work while Mike is gone, only to feel totally yucky after wards and see his dissapointed face when he comes home. both stink. so yes I may blog every day but I guess thats what a girl has to do when she can't sit still.

you know your pregnant when........

Mike bought a movie for the kids last night. (It was on sale for 5.0o at Target) They were only kind of excited. SO YOU KNOW YOUR PREGNANT WHEN....

Instead of acting like a normal human, you get VERY excited about it- you won't let the kids watch it until YOUR chores are done and then cry through almost the entire movie! I loved almost every cheezy moment of it. I did find myself pretty annoyed at Thumbelina at certain points..she is so wish washy!

BABY SHOWER!

Wednesday night was the baby shower!! since it was the week before Halloween we decided it would be fun to make costumes optional. not that many people dressed up but it was still fun. Olivia was SO excited! She refused to talk only shake her little body, since I but bells all over her tutu and wings she sounded just like Tinker bell. she was CRAZY the whole night, it was very cute of her. She awnsered the door and opened ALL the presents, she even arranged them for me. She ate as many cookies as possible, she even tried her hand at the games. I love her! Anyway here is a picture of her and me and all Adriana's new stuff.

get ready! here we go

So this week I was supposed to stay "down", you know be on somewhat bed rest. while I admit that I have tried to stay down. mostly what has resulted is uncooked dinners and a messy house. Don't get me wrong, Mike is doing every thing he can to help, but we get so busy there hasn't been time for him to take over my stuff too. so there are going to be three blogs today. one for the pumpkin patch, one for the baby shower and one for yesterday. I feel really good about the amount on staying down I didn't....not really- but, I'll keep trying!

o.k , fine, I get it.

O.k, fine, I get it I will slow down! My new Dr. for this pregnancy has been....lacking? we have told him over and over about my other two pregnancies and how they went down, but he has not seemed concerned. after months of worrying, I finally decided that if he wasn't worried then neither should I. I have learned how to work through and ignore most painful contractions and not stop even if they came often. With the holidays upon us we have been EXTRA busy, not one day goes by that my list is not full, I don't know how we will do it all, and yet it magically gets done each day and we gear up for the next. Last night- after one very crazy week I knew I had to act "pregnant" and give in, by 10:00 I informed the family (who was having the friday night party- its what we do in this house, of course the kids love it) that I was done and going to bed. did they all think I was a party pooper? yes, but I didn't care. At 11:30 I came back out, mike was more then suprised- you see, I went and laid down only to realize I was haveing contractions about every three minutes apart. At 12:30 we decided we better go in, sure enough I was haveing regular contractions and they needed to stop them ( I am only 33 weeks). so I got the lovley shot, then an hour later I got another one, and my contractions, though still there, were not regular any more and by 4 am we got to finally go home. It was a long night full of shaking and sickness and a rapid heart rate, so I guess the Dr. doesn't know everything. we should have listened to our worries a little more. SO NOW I am on very careful watch and while not totally on bed rest, I have to seriously limit my activites, which I don't know how to do very well (thanks mom). BUT I have to becuase I am dialated to a 1 1/2 which isn't much but I am effaced 80% and she is extremly low and well...ready to get here. With my body it will not take much to get her here and with it being quite early we can't go on that adventure just yet. Of course I am grateful for all the people who have allready, just 24 hours later, reached out and offered help, but more especially Mike becuase he even is trying to "nest" for me so I won't go crazy, I love you honey! I guess we will see what these next few weeks bring. wish me luck.

THE SHIRT

so about two months ago we went to target with a friend, we found these shirts that play transformers music, Jack and his "best friend" both got one and have worn them almost EVERY day since. Yesterday, after about the 100 washing, was the day the music died . Poor Jack cried..... his little heart was broken and all of us felt bad for him. So mike being the great dad he is went to target and found the shirt in long sleeve, it plays a different thing- but Jack loves it all the same. Aren't my boys cute? yes I realize the video is side ways...but since I don't know how to fix that you just have to turn you head to the side and enjoy!

W hats is a name?

so as you know the newest heller arrival is just a few weeks away, and with this new arrival there has been a little bit of back and forth on the name. we have always liked the name "Adri" and so even when I found out I was pregnant I just knew it was our little Adrie on the way. But then all the sudden I was unsure about calling her that and had about twently diffrent names I wanted to call her. One night as we were eating dinner, Mike told us about a dream he had, Mike NEVER remembers his dreams so this was weird! In his dream he pictured our little sweetie and he called her Adrie her nick name and the other full name, he saw her at all ages in life as a baby as a toddler and older from there- and even once when he said her full name- becuase she was being naughty! well I decided this might be my sign that I should put aside my long list and go with the name we have always loved. much to my suprise, however, there has been an issue arise of how the spelling should go...I won't tell who wants what- but I would like to put it out there to get a response and some oppinions on the matter...let me know what you think:

Adriona Elisabeth Heller

OR

Adriana Elisabeth Heller

look at me, I'm a canning queen!

today I am flat on my back...here is why. yesterday I woke up at 6:45 and got a runnin! I helped in yaya's class, clean the house, and by 11 A.M Kristen, Elizabeth and I got to work! yes we had up to 11 kids running around yelling and destroying, yes I my feet hurt like crazy from standing for 8 hours on the tile, but as you can see- the hard work had great results! Not to mention the apple sauce is AMAZING and the apple pie filling makes incredible apple pie and apple crisp! ( we made both yesterday) and in the end I still ended up with a clean house. (you two are wonderful...but you know that!) Any way, I had huge plans for tutus today and as I got up to work I just couldn't. I am so drained I basically sat like a zombie on the couch. All in all it was a great day and I am excited to gain this new skill. So bring on the pumpkins!

here kitty kitty!

Since moving to cali, I have missed my cat SO much. I miss her so much I think I don't call my friend as often as I should, she took her for me and I am always scared I will find out the cat is dead. So it was in a moment of annoyance this morning I realized the lord had blessed me with a sort of replacement. lol. my sweet Jack. I have been working like crazy on these tutu's, and every few hours I have to clean up the front room or else everything just feels out of hand with toole, string, ribbon, conffettie, and flower bits everywhere. As I was doing the morning clean up, I found yet another entire thing of thread unwound and allover my front room, with jackson continuing to string it everywhere with joy. At first I was mad, then I saw the look on his face. As I wound the thread back up ( yes the entire thing) he chased it all over, rolled in it, ran it through his fingers and for some reason over his ears. He was having so much fun, I felt bad when it was all gone. SO for those of us who know him well, we know I already called him kitty but here is why:
- Jackson adores string of all kinds and colors. he winds it, cuts it and ties it on everything.
- he loves to cuddle, but only on his terms.
- he likes his head rubbed and ears too.
- he often meows for no apparent reason other then just to be a cat.
- he finds the sun spots in the house and lays in them.
- he has his favortie blanket and where it is he can be happy.
- food is ever important, my cat used to meow like crazy before I fed her, jack has a similar thing going on, he gets intense!
- Have you ever noticed A cat look at you all mischevious before doing somthing bad? yes he does that to.

anyway I just had to laugh becuase I have my kitty and I don't even have to change a litter box, just wash the sheets often!

a little bit of happiness

today I woke up grouchy! My house was a mess, jack wet the bed for the fourth night in a row, I had 100 things to do and NO energy to do them with, you have to get some sleep to have energy. All in all it has been a crazy day so when kim came to get her little one and the first thing she said was " whats wrong?" it only starts to explain how I felt today. After getting back from Olivias share time ( she showed the kids how to make cookies) and working on tutus for two hours and trying to keep up with every thing else, I sat on the couch exhausted and annoyed with my urges to clean; knowing I just don't have it in me right now. BUT there was some great news that came from today. My friend went to twigs yesterday to buy something, while she was there she asked about the tutu's. guess what? they sold. they have the one for Christmas which they are waiting to put out and then they have one on hold, all the rest are gone!! some one, somewhere is putting them on a baby! how awesome huh? this little morsel of unexpected happiness gave me the energy to type this blog and reset my thinking and hopefully bust out some more tutu work today. which is good since next weekend is my deadline to get them done. let me tell you- between then and now, the list of to dos is longer then we all have time or even would want to read! anyway, anyone who follows this blog would know about my tutus and I thought might want to know that yes, they are selling and at a whopping 48.00 each. which is pretty crazy- but feels amazing! so now I need to get moving and start sewing, I will post pictures by next sat. (hopefully) and you can tell me what you think.